Day-by-day, time after time

I'm still very lost, very unconscious -.-

THIS IS SERIOUSLY GETTING VERY UPTIGHT 'n' MAINSTREAM x.x

'' What should I study? What will I become in the future? ''

I mean whatever you're studying now determines your future. Well I know not everyone comes out becoming what they actually learnt in educational level - their degree, master, phd or what-so-ever

I mean.. the very beginning! What should I even be pursue-ing in the first place ?

You know how it feels to study some course that suddenly strikes you to the STRESS POLE ?

Well.. it is not exactly difficult. Is just that, you don't feel comfortable somehow x.x

and then you have got this bloody big mouth to tell people & even to someone close to you.

and then the outcome you start receiving is 10 times worst of how you feel.

sometimes even by telling the closest one how you feel, doesn't help.

somehow they misunderstand your depression over being hot tempered x.x

n life just gets miserable !!

I used to get really uptight towards relationship sort of problems

sometimes I wonder, is there anything to do with my horoscope, my zodiac sign -.-

I always come up with problems for myself to trouble life

one after another one x.x 

Well the great thing is.. I'm not into relationship problems now. 

wouldn't that just mean I 'm starting to grow already? :) YAY me !

but seriously, standing in the position of not knowing what to study is WORST

Well, I know many teenagers like me would end themselves like me at one point

unless, they are 'much more a mature and knowing what they want to do' kind of people :O

so.. am I considered dumb?! well at a point, I do felt this way..

cause when people start asking you this ' what do you usually like to do? '

er.. watch hk drama, slack, sleep, shop? LOLL

isn't that what most teenagers love doing? THAT DOESN'T SUM UP WHAT I WANT TO STUDY -.-

headache to the max ;(

DESIGN?! is it my kind of thing?

or am I just having a problem with oversea teaching method @.@

sometimes you just feel like swiping the credit card for an airplane ticket back home

without telling anyone -.-

you just want to leave and stop all these problems !

I'm not trying to get away or tries to avoid problems

is just I hate studying it x.x oh wells, I don't know what to say more =.=

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If I didn't made the decision, I wouldn't ended up being like this

Stressing over what to study -.-

Is actually not something that I should really be thinking of right now

because... I just freaking started my course x.x Damn !

I feel so stress lately.. I mean the study part, the career part

other than that, life being alone here is absolutely great :) especially with a bunch of happy people :)

sigh !! WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO BE NEXT TIME?

I want to know an exact career for myself :O ZOMG :( 

beh tahan this feeling..

Feels as if Im wasting a lot of money & being very naive to do all this :(

Am I still being childish to not think properly :( 

I really don't want to make anybody disappointed ;( really don't want ! 

But I don't know what to choose and I'm afraid I'll be ending up sad like this =.=

OMG ! oh god, please let me know what am I destined to? 

I need a fucking realistic career test weih -.- whatthebbqfuck -.-

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SAVE MEEEEEEE ;(