It's Day Five of Depression ;(

I'm still left dangling with mixed feelings.

Somehow I wish to know what you're really thinking

but by somewhere.. some bits.. I'm afraid to find out the ugly truth.

The truth that I don't wish to listen

The truth that I don't wish to know

I'm blinded by love and I can't bare with it right now

I kept trying to forget

but I never thought your existence and importance to me gradually increase

I get sleepless night.. trying to forget is never a good idea

because the more I try, I more I fall

'I told you not to ignore me when I start fallen in love. It just gets harder for things to fall apart.'

I never thought this time, by trying to forget, I can even see you in my dream

They say if you dream of someone, that someone might be thinking of you

Is it true? Then why are you ignoring? :(

I don't know when you're ignoring.. are you feeling happy or are you suffering like me?

I miss you so much that my heart keeps pumping so loudly.

TOLD YOU ! I HATE JULY SINCE 2009 !!

JULY IS NEVER MY MONTH !! ;(

Everything bad just has to fall on the month of July -.-