In this moment of truth, at this point of time,

I can really tell that I can no longer feel the happiness that I would love to live in.

Although things has not officially put to an end but the way I'm being treated already showed.

I can't blame you for anything because I knew this would happen.. just not that quick.

I knew I don't belong to such a comfort zone with you.

I'm paranoid.. I'm afraid to lose you.

I wanted to mention it to you but somehow I held back.

somehow I felt like the quote ' pouring salt onto my injured wound '

I lose my appetite, I lose my smile, I lose my everything

It's been such a long time since I felt this way.

But this time, it's just not the same; it felt as if I can't go back to the how I used to be.

I didn't know how things could dramatically change in just the next.

Sometimes I really wonder if my act ever done wrong?

or was it that I could never receive the happiness that I hope for?

or is it that I was meant to receive them and then get bashed down to hell?

sigh ! No longer the happy girl and wouldn't want to even be anymore

I guess it causes lesser pain, I guess by this way, I wouldn't receive any hopes.

It was my freedom to fall for you. why did you come to me?

but never regretted knowing you and your existence in my life.

because in just a short period of time, I really enjoyed myself.

you showed me what's possible in impossible.

x

i love you