告诉你 瞒着你 只不过是个决定
放弃你 忘记你 只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你 越靠近你 越犹豫

明知道我爱你 却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你 宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理 幸福在手里
我恨自己 无能为力

明知道我爱你 却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意 反而痛了自己
多痛都可以 不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你 by Serene Koong :)

A song that I think some of us would really feel it

Not everything that we wish to have would always come our way

Sometimes, holding in gives it a better conclusion

After all, 'hurt' is never a word we're searching for :)

x

Love song for the win ;)

ALERT ATTENTION 

I'm just bored :} I was just thinking if I should get a ''Facebook-like-Page'' to fill in all the 

lovey dovey, sad sad sober, weird clumsy love story. Something couples or break ups would feel :} 

Maybe I can be a good mind reader for you? 

Sooooo should I?? 

COMMENT :O

x

:)

Let's see.. How should I start this? mm.. well, I need something eye catchy to give it a kick start ;) 

Just trying to get on with happiness when all that you feel is (TWO WORDS) - Stressed OUT :O

There's a bundle of times that you suddenly explodes in your inner side. 

It just gets to you EVERY SINGLE TIME.

Sometimes out of the blues, you get so emotional that whenever someone tries approaching you,

you just don't get the feeling to get to them. somehow if you were to be in a rude approach; ''fuck off'' ?

Well sometimes, I find it quite annoying as if you're trying to be an attention seeker.

But the truth is, you're not ! YOU JUST WANT TO BE ALONE .

A feeling that makes you want to be alone but not really that, right?

Somehow you just want to crawl yourself up, trying to feel the loneliness and dark corners around you.

You just want that just to feel better, to be alright - Everything will be alright -.-

Just at times when you get yourself messed up in a situation that 

nobody would ever expect or knows about it.

And that's when you get so emotional but nobody is there for you to talk it out. 

You feel as if you're the last one standing and everybody is just dead :/

Sometimes you never really want it to happen but as depression hits you real hard, you put them in your face

Guess what ?! You just showed your ''true colors''. 

Your friends know you're sad

Your relatives know you're sad

Your parents know you're sad

Well literally EVERYBODY knows you're sad

&& in just one conclusion that they will sum it up to you asking : 

Orally those three simple English words

1. How are you?

2. Are you okay?

3. What is wrong?

and it goes on and on and on

or somehow they will comfort you with these three words 

Everything is alright :O

It is okay :O

(somehow you know it is not okay but you just don't want to hear

 it anymore so you simply just nod your head)

So.. I mean like somehow you are just too down to reply. 

And when you know the secrets that you're holding onto so tightly is something that you can't exposed

It gets your nerves on going !! 

So let me just give you a scenario, that would be easier, I think :)

what's wrong? 

nothing, i just don't feel like talking right now.

i know you're emo. just tell me, alright?

yea..

so what happened?

nothing, really...

The scenario above is sort of retarded but what I'm trying to point it out is that 

whenever someone tries to comfort you asking what's the problem. you have no idea how to deal with it

Because inside you, you know there's certain problems that you've got no choice but to settle it yourself.

Sometimes you just feel so much like a nutshell or even a baboon ass.

You can't be emotional for nothing, can you? NO !! there's always story behind every frown. 

x

just another sad thing that bombs your world

LETS JUST LIVE LIFE WITH ONLY HAPPINESS :)

I  know I'll never be lonely when there's you that I can count on :)

&& 

I just wanted to share this quote around :}

' Silence is the girl's loudest cry. You know she's surrounded with the 

biggest fear and insecurity the moment she starts ignoring you. ''

- this is such a inspirational quote to me, no idea why but yes, it definitely is -

x

HAPPY.HAPPY.HAPPY

no stress :)

Three Words For ME

I HATE MYSELF

I hate the part that I care too much

I hate the part that I always over think

I hate the part that I get all emotional too quickly

I hate the part that I just lose control out of the blues

The moment I stay calm in my bed facing the ceiling, I can feel tears running down slope

I know I shouldn't be feeling this way, after all it was a choice not a meant to be

A game that I thought worth trying, worth risking, worth playing for

but it is definitely not the right game for me because it bombards me with many doubts in mind

I feel the insecurity and lack of respect (well not respect.. just.. i don't really know how to put this)

''Well, I deserve someone better''

pfft !! I don't see myself as great as getting along with that phrase.

I'm beyond imperfections

Cried a rivers, so what? Tears can't get things any better

You know what I hate? Is that I don't feel being something !!

I don't even understand or even realize in knowing who I am? 

how am I suppose to get to you ? being as ?

I don't have a thick skin because all that I know, I'll just get down to business - being emotional.

Even if you're going to be there for me. They ain't real, they ain't something I should feel.

I just wonder how could I ever make the mistake after one another.

I should have already known the truth, the circumstances, the everything.

But feelings can't be denied. And I'm really scared that I might feel what I shouldn't have.

x

sigh

Today is about to end. hmm.. let's just make it another post :)

I came across with a lot of topics in mind and I pick this up

''What girls look for in a guy?''

Well it's pretty lame, pretty immature :O but we all still have to meet it one day ;)

They are just free tokens into your pockets, so why not share? :)

Maybe a lot of guys out there would say 'LOOKS' when it comes to this question. 

To me, I don't think 'looks' play an ULTIMATE BIG ROLE in it 

(well, maybe they do.. but.. not as big as you may think *winks*)

Cause every girl has different sense of taste

One is good looking to one but not another, get it?

Despite the look, I think having a great gentleman attitude is something girl's fall for.

I mean, who wouldn't? ;) It's pretty sweet :)

Well, girls do not only want a guy to be sweet, romantic, nice all the way

Sometimes a little bit of teasing or bullying can be flattering (is that the right word? :/ and obviously NOT TOO MUCH, dummy :P)

I mean girls wouldn't expect a guy to be NICE 24/7 yea?

Plain dull ! They need excitement :)

I know guys are born good in sweet talking & we, girls are born to fall for them thou we know it may not be something out of sincerity.

(pure sadness, but without them.. we can never feel good, don't argue cause it's true)

What I'm trying to point out is, can't you guys turn sweet talking into REAL WORDS?

If you do, that's really nice of you.

It is what all girls dream of, to have a guy who they can fully trust

Someone that they can proudly to let everyone know how much they love them

Someone that never fails to lift her up whenever she's in doubts

Someone who will comfort and let her know, she will never be the last one standing, 

because he will be there as well

Someone who she can see future with in his eyes

Someone who she can feel safe and secure

Someone who she won't be afraid to fall because he'll be there to support

x

isn't it simple ? :)

what a girl really wants :)

I been trying trying
Hold my head up high
I been lying lying
Keeping it all inside
Trying not to trust you, yeah
Take another leaf, I'm broke yeah yeah

I'm done, I give up
I don't wanna pretend no more
That's it, so what
I've lost a friend before
Gonna say it like it is
No more wondering what if
That ain't the way you ought'a live
Cause I don't want you to love me
If you don't wanna love me for me

A doll house is all that you could see
But it's so far from my reality
I got problems, I got issues
Sometimes it's all too much for me
Wrap it up with a pretty little bow
But there are some things you can't sugarcoat
Give it to you anyway
Even though it won't taste so sweet

Sick of all the fighting
All the slamming of the doors
The pain, the parents, too deep you know
Step back, step back
Can you see it through my eyes?
I know, I know
Maybe a surprise
Don't wanna be perceived for something that I'm not
Just wanna be accepted for the little that I got
If you could see me now in my glass house
Not ready to let you in

Cause I don't want you to love me
If you don't wanna love me for me

x

Falling in love with this song. Well sometimes they speak more than you could express :)

Cher Lloyd ;)

Have you people ever felt that there's always something that limits us.

Not everything that we see around us is capable for us to handle.

Let's just say, not every game can be played. We're human beings not GOD. 

A game called relationships. Cannot be played by all. 

Have you seen how people loses in games? Well, the game 'relationship' do not play it that way.

When you lose, all your hopes disappears. All the worth you held suddenly vanish into thin air. 

All that you do is crumple yourself in bed, repeating sad stories in your ears, tearing as if you're the broken water pipe. 

You really need the quote that most of us would say : Forgive, forget, and start a brand new day !

Well, if you discover how you lost in the game, that wouldn't be the word you say. 

Let me guess, you'll be there telling yourself ' I can't live without you ' 

Somehow it feels like beggars begging for money, but it will definite be worst than that. 

'Cause you're not begging for money but feelings. 

Someday when the ray of light starts coming your way, shining your dark path.

You'll laugh at your past. The naive past that was once your thoughts. 

You will miss it but it will surely make you who you really are now :)

Well, maybe you do not miss the person, but the feelings. The feeling that once surrounds you giving in all the support and unconditional love to you.

 Maybe it is right saying : No one can ever love you the same. 

Everyone is different. They have a character of its own. 

That is how unique we can be :)

x

Keep your smile high up. After all, it is the inexpensive yet valuable makeup you can ever wear ;)

I'm no expert but I am yet to share my thoughts

Sometimes all that you need, is someone who can truly understands you

Someone who can really know how you feel

There's no need for you to talk it out, explain any further ... 

x

you just need that someone when all you could feel is uncertainty