BitterSweet Memories
Tuesday, June 28, 2011 11:37 PM
Feel?
You know you hate when you just get annoyed when you see, hear, or just anything that's related to the person.
You know you love when all you think about, or anything you see, first thing that come across your mind is just about that one particular person.
but how would you ever know what you feel if that one person cause mixed feelings in you?
Days are just so hard yet you don't even know
Everyday I'll keep telling myself how not important you are to me
how you no longer play a big role in me; maybe not even a single bit
Sometimes I really do believe it
Sometimes I actually think that you don't mean a god damn thing to me anymore.
And every time when that happens, I feel so much better; relieved is the word
less vulnerable, less effective
It just feels like you can't affect me anymore.
I've repeated this thought countless times that I've almost made it true
made it as if it is going to be so damn real
But then, it freaking scare the out of me of moving forward; going to the front
Cause what happens when you stop loving someone?
What happens when you someday wake up and realize that this person actually doesn't mean anything to you?
What happens when you realize that the person you care isn't the person you care anymore?
cause the point is how could I afford to go from 1000 to 0
or like from heaven to hell?
I'm a girl that feels so so so good when I receive love; it doesn't matter even if it's small
and I guess that's the reason of why I couldn't afford to let go.
You've treated me like a little princess, giving me all the care and love you had.
I couldn't afford to lose you just like that because maybe, I don't want any of those to happen
cause I want to love, to love you.
x
I'm lost
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