BitterSweet Memories
Wednesday, April 20, 2011 8:25 PM
SO YOU KNOW, I find songs express better than I do. i used to worry less and party hard. i used to take everything slow and steady but now, i can say that my heart is somehow unstable. i used to be able to listen to mushy love songs without having anyone in my mind, blank fullstop ! but at this point of time, the moment of truth is being revealed. it fails my thoughts as everything gets the other way round.
you're like an old recording tape stuck perfectly in my head. cause no matter what i do, you're all i think about. you run all over my veins and i'm addicted to it. gosh !
i tried so hard but still ... i can't lie to myself. i can't pretend. i suck badly in these kind of a thing which i won't deny it, obviously. i tried hiding my feelings thinking it was somewhat termed as 'antigenic concealment'. how stupid could i be when i know you got me so deep into you.
i'm starting to like you. no wait. [correction to be made.] i'm falling for you... i think. uh oh, i think? yeah right ! months ago, ain't that right? it keeps repeating itself in my mind. how i wish those was the knowledge i have for my AS exams instead ... D: unfortunately. you just had to bombard yourself into my life. or is it because i'm loving it at the same time ?
my heart is racing. the emotions keep spinning out. I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe. i've been spending all of my time thinking about you. you just didn't realize and notice that i did. you're the one. yes, you ! stop thinking elsewhere cause i want to spend part of my life having you in them. you can definitely compile up one of the best memory for me. cause you did though it was short. you're no one special for the world but you're something to me. you spark my life with colors. without you, life gets duller with black n white as backgrounds.
now, i'm not sure how to end this. shall i end this by saying ''i miss you'' or ''i love you''. cause i'm pretty sure i'm having rainbow's feelings for you. cause no matter how hard i try giving up, giving in, let go, let's begin, plus whatever that's left for me to do, my heart is still filled with you. complicated yet mischievous. and i guess it's just a thing called love.
x
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