BitterSweet Memories
Sunday, February 27, 2011 9:33 PM
So many things start to happen when it all started with a problem falling on you.
A problem that fails your heart to actually have a full recovery.
My heart needs a break but it isn't giving in; it is trying to hurt itself !
I really wonder - what's the point of talking, at times.
Nobody hears me; they ain't hearing what I'm trying to confront.
It's the feeling of being the odd one out - i feel left out :(
Sometimes I think back and it made me feel like tearing up.
I used to have a person that I could fully trust on.
I used to have a person that I could really believe in.
I used to have a person who I can release everything to.
I used to have a person that I can talk to in almost anything.
... and I wasn't afraid of problems.
Because I know, even if one day I couldn't take it anymore and just fall over, the person would catch me
The person would cure my little heart with just anything the person do.
but now I'm really scared, am terrified in everything.
I've lost the person and I feel really lost.
I no longer have a person that I could trust.
not that I couldn't trust my family, my friends, but there are always barrier in between
to stop me from talking... and that's when I could just cry myself to bed.
I really thought when one bad luck strikes, I would face something nice soon.
I didn't notice how hurtful I could get the second time.
Not that I'm blaming it on you; you have your reason and I know it.
but it isn't me who wants to destroy everything.. it's just the feeling that I can't stop !
x
I miss someone that's near me somehow ;(
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