BitterSweet Memories
Monday, January 31, 2011 10:30 PM
两 棵星星，一片海
just like you and me (we)
I was never born to be good in words. And so sometimes, in short, everything I wanted to say doesn't really appears to be a mystery. It felt as though I have nothing new to offer.
I want to fall hopelessly in love with you
No special reasons behind
I just do
Boyfriend Material
I'm not going to say you're my idea of a boyfriend material but I won't deny it either. 'Cause you're just one of a kind, that's all I could say :} and that, makes all the difference.
You're not the choice that I want to pick but then you're the mistake I'm willing to pick up to be with.
I guess you worth the pain I'm having. It's the overall you that I adore.
You know?
x
my.heart.dance.like.a.ballerina.when.you're.anywhere.near
and that's how I sense you coming :)
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Friday, January 28, 2011 12:22 PM
Understanding the opposite sex
Opposite sex
They are basically of no difference, I mean they are still one of our kind.
They are also considered as an oxygen lover and a carbon dioxide repeller.
Mainly, they just do whatever we girls do !
but
whythehellaretheysocomplicatedtous
They think like no others, one day this and the next day, it's gone.
Their actions somehow doesn't follow their head
Improper coordination. something like that
Words coming from their mouth is of no guarantee
that's why, promises taken from them are like cow dung
Sometimes they act like a total heartless bitch !
Worst than bitches' gossip
They think with their irresponsibility, they could get out of all those craps they did
but they never knew, we girls would still insist to stick onto them letting them hurt us
and don't even bother to find a way to hurt and get mad at them.
They are good pretenders.
They can pretend as if nothing happens after everything had happened.
but they didn't know, we girls are of no where further than that.
We can pretend as if nothing happened on the outside but yet they did not expect that
we are actually crying on the inside.
'' The smile you see is equivalent to the tears running down inside ''
Time
To them, time is the same as how we, people follow but
For us, days can be months, months can be years, years can be decades.
No matter how long it is as long as we love, we never fail to stop thinking of you, opposite sex.
We dream of you as sort that it's for free.
We tear till you could fill them up into buckets of pails.
We heartbreak as if there's no other heart to be replaced.
because we know (on the inside)
we worry about you
we care about you
we think about you
we miss you
and of course lastly,
we love you
I love you
[never thought of hurting you]
OH-FUCK-NOT-A..GAIN
x
you are love, loved, loving, loves
basically, you're everything (:
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Thursday, January 27, 2011 7:48 PM
QUOTE OF THE DAY FOR YOU
my precious one
When you're not with me, all I can think is for time to quickly pass and and the next day to come... but time always passes so slowly.
When you're with me, all I can think is for time to stop and the next day not to come... but time always passes too quickly.
Pretending...
I can always pretend that I have got no ears, no eyes, no brains. So that I can pretend that I can't hear, can't see, don't bother and just stay alive. But obviously, I can't go way beyond my lies. And by that I mean of your existence. YOU EXIST FOR REAL and so, it's not going anywhere.
x
It's amazing how you could speak right through my heart
You ignite my fireworks
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Wednesday, January 26, 2011 7:49 PM
AWKWARDNESS
spicing up the corner
omgee ! this is a pure dumbo.
''Is like you want it but thinking that you can't have it and so you don't wish to approach it''
and that's the feeling I'm talking about, chyeah!
Deja Vu all over again
x
At least I know my heart is still breathing partly because of you
If sweety were to be fucker, then you're sure to be one fucker indeed (:
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Tuesday, January 25, 2011 10:23 PM
Love...
I'm just like all the ordinary girls you see outside, out of the box. And sometimes I do wonder about thinking about love. I mean the definition of it, of course. It pretty much scratches my head when it comes to this. It's not hard yet it isn't simple as well. I guess different people define them differently. And obviously it has to do with someone that entered/enters your life in order for you to really understand the true meaning of love. That's what I thought, and am still thinking the same. Well, you have got no choice to pick your special someone in your life. It's by chances. They enter like no others and out of nowhere, you just find yourself accepting them more than just a friend. It's not the choice you're dealing with but the feelings. You can never underestimate what you yourself could do because your feelings lead you as a whole. And that's definite. Well, as far as I concern, it is for me.
You can never oppose your feelings that you're having inside. You cannot just simply go against it because it acts as some sort of a mirror. The more you object it, the more it hurts. And that's what I call reflection? Somewhere around the corner.
To me :
The true meaning of love is when someone breaks your heart and the most amazing bit is that you still love them with every broken pieces.
It is the broken pieces that make you realize what you've really done. The faults and the truths. It's the pain you're facing just like fragments of glasses cutting you, your soul. It basically ruins your life ! But I guess that's the growing stage everyone would have to meet one day. At least someday. Nobody stays naive for long, ain't that right? But to a certain extend, being naive is not that bad actually. It doesn't much shows that if that person is naive, therefore he/she is stupid ! I mean some people hold onto what they believe. To you, it may be a nuisance. But for them, it's a hope. A new beginning for them, their faith. So why not grab hold onto what you want to believe in, what you hope for. It's better to be having hopes rather than becoming a hopeless person, right?
x
Love believes You Are the ONE
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6:00 PM
YOU CAN BE
You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain
And I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date
You can be the hero
And I can be your side kick
You can be the tear
That I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's storming
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the morning
You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth and I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages
You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together
You know that I'll never doubt you
And you know that I think about you
And you know I can't live without you
I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the aisle
Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry
Cause your the one for me
And I'm the one for you
You take the both of us
And we're the perfect two
Baby, me and you
We're the perfect two
x
Perfect two ;)
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Sunday, January 23, 2011 12:51 AM
I don't understand why each time I see a picture of you, my heart stops and you take my breath away. Each time. I'm actually not supposed to feel this way about you anymore. I'm not. I don't know if you even think about me every once in a while or feel at least something whenever you see my face. Part of me hopes you really do, which is bad. Extremely bad. I still have hope and I have been unaware of that or simply been trying hard to avoid that fact.
I never really wanted to think I was in love with him. I just thought that somehow I could have want what I couldn't have, but no, now I know without a shadow of a doubt. I'm in love with him and let's say if it's possible to love someone more everyday, I would have done that but a little more each day. I hate him so so much. Let's just say if you were on fire and in coincidence that I were to be having a bucket of water, I'll try my very best to drink them all without leaving even a sip. But then, it's not that kind of a hate.
I kept trying to wake myself out of this. No matter how hard I try, I still fall back to sleep. It's that kind of an addiction to me. Yes, I'm that addicted to you. Alright, maybe this is over dramatic but I can definitely say you're the first person I think about each time. I hate my thoughts, basically I hate myself at times. Real bad and such low self-esteem I'm having uh? It's just me! The fact that I find girls [me as an example] think too much while the guys don't care is killing me. Somehow, it's the fact that they mature much much more slower than we girls do but still I don't much like that for an excuse. I mean you just can't go about saying sorry and that's it, you're sorry. It pretty much do not exactly close the case. Your sorry is like a meaning to cry rivers and curl myself up into such small frame for hours. But on the other hand, ''at least you care'' just pull me in. You see, how I would back you up in almost everything even when I'm falling apart. You're just my weakness, that's all it takes.
For now, I've set up my own goal. And that I'm not going to give up without a fight. I know that at least if I don't give up, I would still have that bit of a hope. And that bit of being able to accept defeat if the time comes, if I try my very hardest, that is. I knew it never started one sided. So I'll wait.
When they say 'love', I find myself relating it to you
x
When life gives you soda, drink it.
because it all happens for a reason and so, don't leave it dangling
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Saturday, January 22, 2011 3:57 PM
You never told me that from the very first. That's why I took that chance to get deeper.
As they say take chances, take a lot of them.
Because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always
ends up just the way it should be.
Your mistakes make you who you are. You learn and grow
with each choices you make. Everything is worth it.
Say how you feel, always. Be you, and be okay with it.
... and there I go wondering about.
Your smile mesmerize me, and that's definite !
There are so many passer-by, have you notice that crowd?
Cause boy, when you stood straight there from my view
You drown the crowd away. It's magical, I say
Whenever you thought you have gotten yourself out of the mess, you just never realized that you have fallen off to another one. It's like some mess you're building in for yourself. Not exactly the way you think it is cause it feels so bad, so bad. Never start with a sorry because you're not, I'm sure. Nobody is and that's human nature. Nothing ends when it's forced to do so. But whatever it is, everything was done! And it's done for a reason. A reason for me to believe that the moment you chose to sink into my life, you were supposed to be there all along. It wasn't a game after all !
Do you believe in it?
I hope you understand everything that I'm paying out for.
x
I wish for a wish
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Wednesday, January 19, 2011 9:51 PM
Don't make things harder for me
cause the harder it gets, the more I'm pursuing it
I knew it was possible, is just that I never thought the person would be YOU.
oh wells, guess you were meant to be stuck in there. no?
But you are all I want to meet everyday. Life's dull without you.
You get what I'm trying to say?
I understand you and why wouldn't you?
Never mind, I learn things from the hard way and I want a no ending story with you
Cause You n I is one, never apart from what I see.
oh crap, now you're stuck in my head like an old spoilt video tape going on and on
but it's okay, I can handle it (:
I don't promise like other girls, so do you
Promises can never be rely on
For a girl, it's everything. For a guy, they are just a piece of paper.
but I can assure myself to be the best for you
Cause it's ME (:
Did I just scare you?
but you should have known it from the very beginning.
I never give up that easily :}
xx
love love that goes spinning
mwuacks mwuacks
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Tuesday, January 18, 2011 12:14 AM
FUCK THE HEART
I don't get life these days. I guess pretty much for months already.
It doesn't feel as right as how it used to be.
How I wish I could tell you how does it exactly feels to be screaming on the inside
while you're shut having those silent tears on the outside
like for every morning - not even a good start of the day.
People say : '' Pretend to laugh is better than not even smiling. ''
What's so great about pretending nowadays? I don't get the point !
Newest trend these days for our generation ?
It's bloody annoying because sometimes all that I feel is being fake.
It's making everything not real, it seems.
I don't understand what the heart is trying to say.
What does it want more? Have it got not enough of the lessons taught?
Or is it fighting for the sake of my protection?
Heart, Heart, how I wish you could TALK and tell me
Let me know everything you want to say all these while.
I can't be just guessing here cause I'm having such crumpled feelings in me.
I want you to know that I love you and I don't want you hurt.
Cause when you're hurt, it hurts me even more.
I will use all my will to secure you, Heart.
Please beat at a normal rate tonight, please..
Please smile tonight, please..
I don't wish to see your droplets buddy running down my cheeks.
I wish for a smile to bed.
And for the last time,
Heart, let me tell you what I'm thinking now
I hope I guessed it right, cause I wanna think the same way as you do too
I love him and I miss him
so so much
x
How I wish I could tell you how does it exactly feels to be screaming on the inside
while you're shut having those silent tears on the outside
like for every morning - not even a good start of the day.
People say : '' Pretend to laugh is better than not even smiling. ''
What's so great about pretending nowadays? I don't get the point !
Newest trend these days for our generation ?
It's bloody annoying because sometimes all that I feel is being fake.
It's making everything not real, it seems.
What does it want more? Have it got not enough of the lessons taught?
Or is it fighting for the sake of my protection?
Heart, Heart, how I wish you could TALK and tell me
Let me know everything you want to say all these while.
I can't be just guessing here cause I'm having such crumpled feelings in me.
I want you to know that I love you and I don't want you hurt.
Cause when you're hurt, it hurts me even more.
I will use all my will to secure you, Heart.
Please beat at a normal rate tonight, please..
Please smile tonight, please..
I don't wish to see your droplets buddy running down my cheeks.
I wish for a smile to bed.
And for the last time,
Heart, let me tell you what I'm thinking now
I hope I guessed it right, cause I wanna think the same way as you do too
I love him and I miss him
so so much
x
Every atom of me misses you.
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Saturday, January 15, 2011 2:12 PM
why would I ever
why would I ever think of leaving you
why would I ever
baby I'll never
Cause I just wanna know how to get through
Cause you put together every piece of me
Baby you, you know exactly what I need to be
I'm not leaving you, no ! I'm not leaving you
I won't leave you in the cold, in the cold
I'm not leaving you, I'm not leaving you
Baby I know, I love you
It's me and you against the world
No matter what we go through
I'mma always roll with you
I promise I'll be your girl
x
[why would I ever]
I'm missing you like shit-oh-crap lots
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Thursday, January 13, 2011 8:03 PM
I dropped a tear in the ocean
The day you find it is the day I will stop missing
YOU
!!
Out of like 27,467,837 people (this is like only the population in M'sia),
you just had to be the one, didn't you?
You just had to be the special one, the one that I chose to rely on
Boy, you freaked me out ! but yet I still fall for it every single time
You just got yourself irresistible or something?
Can't you be someone that I can categorized it as a so not 'big deal' kinda person ?
... but it's too late cause the answer YOU n I guessed it was right
Love is always a selfish act
Is either you being selfish or otherwise
I can't bare with the pain no more and I've got no sense of trying to follow what
you want and how it should be
I tried once and trust me, I did it so badly
and as for now, I'm having this ''stranded on an island at night'' sort of feeling
It feels so bad, so companionless, if that's the word
What's done is always done !
It has been done for good and how the hell should I leave it behind?
Chuck it aside and then get along with it ?
That's way too much, it's over my that line, that invisible line
Limits, I say
One thing for you to know
I'll be there no matter what, I'll be waiting just for you
Feelings never lie, I shall say (:
Isn't it pretty ridiculous or sort of feeling downcast when you're putting all the hopes and efforts into something that you knew the ending in the beginning, but somehow from somewhere you just find the worth in you to still continues it like as if it matters a lot to you
and the truth is : IT DOES MATTERs A LOT
from I don't know when did the game ever started
x
Cinta padamu ♥
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Tuesday, January 11, 2011 11:40 PM
This could have been just another day
But instead we're standing here
No need for words, it's all been said
In the way you hold me near
I was alone on this journey
You came along to comfort me
Everything I want in life is right here
I get so weak when you look at me
I get lost inside your eyes
Sometimes the magic is hard to believe
But you're here before my very eyes
You brought joy to my world, set me so free
I want you to understand;
You're every breath that I breathe
From this day on, remember this
That you're the only one that I adore
Can we make this last forever
This can't be a dream
Cause' it feels so good to me
This is not your ordinary, no ordinary love
I was not prepared enough to fall so deep in love
x
No ordinary love (:
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