Have you felt that pain that comes running through your veins?

Have you felt the hurt that keeps following you around stabbing right into your heart?

Have you seriously tried being real depress till you have got no sense of direction?

Have you gotten real emo till you felt like dying like for real?

Have you?

Do you wish to try some?

I don't mind sharing because I wished to get rid of them !

I may be tough and happy on the outside

What's on the inside, have you thought of it?

I'm not exactly what you think I am and I can't imagine it myself

Cause it hurts just in every bit

I'm a big fan in love, I seriously am. No doubts.

I'm not trying to emphasize saying that I'm obsess in a way, is just that I fantasize everything to be perfect and happy

Isn't that what all girls wished to have ?

Why must you spill and spoils everything that I've been dreaming all along ?

Is it even wrong to love someone ? There's no restriction saying you can't go for them.

Do they ?

Why must I be hurt one after another? Is there words written on my face saying : HURT ME ? Am I the alternative to be hurt? Is it such a nice game to play on me?

What the hell did I do to deserve such punishment? I did no crime. Karma? What bullshits ?!

If you guys think that the word FORGET is easy to be done

then go ahead try being dumped by the one you love or having to receive things that you are afraid to receive the next day without notice like seriously

You would just feel like jumping down from a building

You may say how does that worth the death. But have you thought about how uncontrollable a feeling could turn out to be when you're totally blanked out

How great would that be if 'forget' is similar as clicking the delete button on your keyboard or erasing it with your eraser or even liquid paper things you don't want

I'm not heartless and I do not have the courage to do so

I do not just forget with just a blink of an eye not because I don't want, is just that I'm born not being capable in doing so. I'm a dumbo in this, I agree !!

Sometimes how I wish I was a cruel, heartless person

not caring and not having to bother about anything only about myself

not being able to be hurt like a doll

because my heart is not a toy, it is alive and it has complex feelings

It shatters and I don't want it to shatter even further more cause I do not know how to stitch it back

My heart says things that doesn't matches my mind

Simply because I have a very fragile heart that holds onto things easily

I do not go for things that doesn't come to me, but when it does, I hold on to it real tightly

I may once learnt how to let go but I seriously forgot about it

because I believe that it no longer exist in me and I shall live in a happy life

I swear

I didn't expect things to be that complicated, to be so depressing

When I tear up, I do seriously mean what I feel because it had became part of me

and seriously, I'm SO-NOT-A-CRY-BABY, that's why

All I want is a sincere loving heart, a love that lasts as I find you nice

You entered my life by all means

It was fated for you to step into this broken paradise to heal me

To cure my heart ache, my broken heart

You're a good listener, a good one indeed

The one that I could totally forget unhappiness as I talk with you

Isn't that how you feel too?

People may think I'm a total bitch, but in different perspective, I believe things happen for a reason

and in different perspective, it isn't what you ever wished to do so

Some things are fated and are not controllable

I go on a happy track just to keep myself safe on the happiness route

I'm sure that's what you would have done if it happens on you

Don't deny because you've never really tried the taste of real depression in life.

x

Goodbye and Goodnight

Enough for a day

[Keep smiling whenever you are not]